Smashing my phone and laptop up, living on the generosity of others through busking, tips and pity while focusing directly on the reality in front of me instead of a screen, gives you a very different perspective on what science, education and manipulation is. You have the time and "space" (pardon the pun) to question what others actually know about the world and how we could be learning more.
When I first became houseless which was over a year ago I wasn't paying attention to the normal things that others pay attention to, which I suppose is why I did become homeless or houseless as I now call it. Technically can any of us really be "homeless"?
What I was paying attention to is ME and how I was spending my time and how it was making me feel, how dare I, such narcissistic behaviour right. I noticed that I was directing a lot of my day based on where I could get my phone and laptop charged up and when I really questioned what value that was bringing me, turns out, not a hell of a lot. I was making sure that I had a full charge before I went back to the tent so I could watch a movie or a podcast or something. During the day I would be checking emails and frankly not really doing anything of any value and just staring at a screen feeling bored, isolated and alone. In all honesty things haven't changed a hell of a lot except I'm not staring a screen as much and I do much more of the things I enjoy and generally feel pretty good in myself. Interestingly I still feel isolated and alone which is an interesting perspective and makes me question where that thought comes from and why I don't seem to be able to fix it (possibly another blog post for another time).
There are so many doctor jokes and we constantly listen to comedians making jokes and people moaning about them and yet we all still live our lives by the "science".
Why is it so easy to create so many jokes about a subject? Possibly because it's a joke!
This is such a big subject and links into everything it's hard to condense things into a palatable blog post that is fun to read or even write in the first place. How do we imagine science came to be? Does anyone really think about it anymore.
I personally have reached the top of the apple tree and there are no good apples left up here, they have all fallen down and hit people on the head. I don't think you understand the gravity of the situation, in fact, I think I'm going to call it gravity! Yes that's what I'll do, all the good apples have fallen down and hit people on the head so I am going to call it gravity because you don't understand the gravity of the situation. Ok sir, fine, but what is gravity, it's the apple falling down you moron! Are you tripping sir, Well yes of course that's why you come to me! I have the best idea's and this is my latest one. Now I haven't punctuated that correctly but this is my blog and I don't care! It's boring to read perfectly punctuated text.
What I'm going to do is write a paper, it will be beautiful, it won't make any sense but it will be beautiful and brilliant to read, the people will love it and I'm for the people. It won't make any sense because it never can, it's based on my perception in the moment and frankly I'm tripping my tits off but it will be fun to read. Then someone else will read that paper and find their own truth within a part of that paper and write another paper on that. This will happen over and over again and then ten or so papers down the line nobody will know what the hell is going on, not even me! We'll call that Science. Yup that's what we'll do. Now, go and make me some more tax and fear with Science, and you know what we get when we put tax and fear together......TEARS!! We like tears.
Over the last few months I have made loads of similar scripts to the above (in my head) highlighting the ridiculousness of so many products ideologies and systems of work that we follow, all in the name of science and I suppose this partly answers the question as to why I spend a lot of time on my own, it's hard for people to hear, let alone laugh! So much of the world we live in is controlled, dominated and manipulated by the illusion of what science is and the good it is doing for us that a simple script like the one above, although funny, does ask a lot of questions that frankly are hard to ask unless you've worked through a certain level of trauma. When you think about it, how could such a world wide brainwashing exist and be held in place for so many years, the only answer for this is trauma. Trauma links to everything also, it's the way we perceive others, who we perceive, why we perceive, when we perceive and how we deal with it. Most of that is formed in the first 7 years of our live and most of it is pre verbal. A massive subject that you can see links into everything and also links into how the illusion of science along with medical indoctrination has been held in place. Can I fix people in one blogpost?
It would be a long read but I suppose the first thing that's needed is for people to notice that it's happening and feel the feelings that come up when you do. Fear, anger, frustration, helplessness, sadness, pity, guilt etc etc. These will all come up and people do not want to feel them, especially if they've been working in the NHS (National Hitler Service) or alike for the last 40 years, injecting people without any idea of what they are even really doing it for and how it is helping. I'm not saying this is all Hitler's fault, how could it be but I like to flip things and get people thinking negatively instead of thinking "thank you NHS".
So unfortunately you need to have a high understanding of psychological issues and how that is being used to manipulate and control society in order to even explain it. There are not many people that can do this and more importantly there are not many people that can do it without getting angry and there are not many people that haven't had to face an awful lot of trauma to have this high level understanding which will normally come with other sets of problems, like drug or drink addictions. I don't say this lightly and I don't give compliments very often but some of the smartest people that I've met have been on the streets labelled "drunks" or "junkies" or "crack heads". They see the world for all that it is and have never been given the tools to cope with the level of trauma that will come inside of them when they do. That's the short version of my opinion.
I've met heroin addicts that know how to make morphine from ingredients you can by at the local shop. Now whether you think that's morally right or not, it is very smart! This same person also introduced me to weed coffee. He made me a lovely coffee boiled up with weed and a bit of coconut oil and it was one of the best coffee's I've had. I was blissed out on just "being" in the world for hours. Now why would that be illegal? Some of these people are so smart they are doing things to help others on the streets, giving them medicine that may not be legal and giving them the service and attention they may not get in a hospital while still dealing with their own addictions and trauma in life! Some of these people are hero's in shop doorways hoping for the world to notice. Not so they get out of a shop doorway or improve their lives but so the people who notice stop working, breaking their backs and living their lives in slavery to a system that just wants to generate more and more tax.
When you start to see the world like this it is very hard to watch what happens to people happen on the street. Kids being dragged to school to learn their "schools of thoughts" and to answer the questions I talk about here What this world seems to be about. Children being walked about on leads because parents are so terrified of everything, especially the poorly designed roads and why wouldn't they be. Pedestrianised area's are some of the most dangerous places for kids to be running free! Imagine being a 60 year old guy that had spent 30 years just watching things like this happen, watching it get worse and worse, and people just acting more and more brainwashed and scared to face more and more trauma. All in the name of science. Do you think you would just sit on a bench and drink?!!
Unfortunately (sometimes) I get a lot of attention from these people, I mean they haven't seen a busker with balls the size of mine for a while, possibly ever, and I don't care about anything the government tries to tell me to do in a town around busking. So it's like a breath of fresh air for them and they get very excited, however they are still drunks so I have to take them in small doses but when I do and if I can listen, in amongst the bullshit there is some very clever wisdom once in a while.
Just by slowing down, paying attention to my surroundings and not living my life by a screen I have managed to learn so much more about reality and what it all means. You start to think in a way you wouldn't believe possible, you start to understand your reality and what is happening around you in a way you wouldn't think is possible and I haven't read any books over the last year. It's all based on experience, conversation and thinking time or processing time. Meaningful attention placed on the things I want to in the moment rather than what a boss or teacher wants me to do in order to create more tax. One of the things I've put a lot of thought into is energy. Energy can mean a lot of things to a lot of people but being houseless and living outside you start to understand energy and how we outsource it (when living in a home or house) over and over again. You start to see how people live their lives outsourcing the creation of energy to an external supplier like the government in lots of different ways rather than generating that energy themselves and just staring at a screen (produced from that energy). Which when you think about it you could say reading is an outsourcing for thinking! Ironic as I'm in the public library writing this blog which is full of books completely uninteresting to me :)
Energy is basically created with sound and vibration and once you start to understand and notice that going on around you then you start to change your whole reality. Or at least that's what happened for me. Sound is vibration is energy is heat - it's all one as the buddha would say. I'm going to follow this blog post with another one on gas or compressed air (me calling it compressed air should spark your attention enough) as I've had some interesting thinking time about this and how it relates to the reality we live in and how we are just lied to over and over again.
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